So the story is I am due to leave my job in about two days time; I find myself in a crossroad of decisions.

Since I fired my boss, I have registered for my personal training course which starts next month. Yes, as in a gym instructor! My ex boss said to me, I have been scratching my head thinking why you have made such a drastic decision. See, I keep telling everyone, since I work out 6 times a week; I might as well incorporate it into a job. And no I am not just going to be a personal trainer, I want to do it as a part time thingy.

Since I got into this fitness mode more than a year and a half ago, I have inspired and motivated my colleagues and peers to jump into the gym-monkey mode as well. And I think why not? I have even thought about how my business card should look like - A sillhouette of me holding a whip in one hand and a dumb bell in the other. My target customers - dirty old white men who are 100 pounds off their ideal weight. I'd definitely make them sweat their balls off! Better be very scared!!

Back to the job thingy, at this moment; I have a few options in hand and I feel a little conflicted. I don't know whether if I should go back to what I was doing before because I was doing it so well and plus once you have been doing something for so long, you already have the experience and the contacts. And plus you are at liberty to demand for a higher salary and better package so on and so forth. On the other side of the coin, maybe I should try something entirely new because if we don't try new things, we do not know how much we can extend and expand.

I feel like I am learning to swim again - when you're a kid, your parents dump you in the pool and you paddle and paddle because you have no concept of drowning. Now, the conept of drowning is something very real.

I found myself telling my friend David something I have felt for years yet I might have forgotten about it along the way. Ever since I was young, I have this notion that I was never going to be just average. I always feel that I was destined to do something. And it worries now me now than ever because I am no closer to finding it. However like I said before, I am thankful that whatever I have done in the past and continue doing now is only because of passion. I don't know if I ever will find my destiny but right now I am just letting love and interest do the talking.

And in the meanwhile, enjoy my Tai- Tai break since Rudi has granted me permission to soak in Tai- Taidom. Oh yes, in about 3 months, please call me Ms. Instructor. I'd be happy to give anyone a trial lesson.