Turning30andLovingIt

Happy New Year.

10:12 AM

I have been hiking loads. It's really the best time of the year to hike because the weather is so cool and snakes are hopefully by now hibernating ( due to Global Warming, maybe they are not) I recently had an adventure which I thought was pretty fun and it's little adventures like these that remind me that I am truly relishing and maximizing every moment I have. On a 6 hour hike from Shek Pik Reservoir to Tai O, we got lost and by the time we realised how lost we were, it was completely dark. It was a good thing, we had a torchlight with us that we managed to clumsily stumbled to a safe spot.

We tried to call 999 but we unfortunately had a foreign phone reception. We called 112 -- the China emergency number and they told us they couldn't help us. Finally, we SMSed some friends and asked them to help us call the cops. We didn't know how far we were from Tai O but we knew exactly where we were because of specific landmarks - we were near a temple and we were by the beach.

It was a cold night and trust me when you're outdoors, it's even colder. Was I scared? Not really, I was prepared to spend the night there. It's been years since I last camping, I wished that I was a tad bit better equipped. Before there was TV and Nintendo consoles, I wondered if people then looked up to the sky more often than we did. I haven't for a long while and when I looked up that night, the sky was just dotted with stars. I had no ideas, they are so close to one another. Or maybe I just forgot they are.. I went back to the basics that night.

Not long after, 10 firefighters came and we were escorted back to Tai O town.. We had a complete entourage of firefighters, police and paramedics waiting for us. I suppose in a town as small as Tai O they were excited to have any forms of emergencies, as small as it might be. They did looked a bit dissapointed when they found out none of us were injured.

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Sophie and Me

12:27 PM

I am tempted to watch Marley & Me. I read the book awhile ago and loved every single page of it. It was the first book I ever read whereby I was afraid of reading too fast and every single page that I flip, I dread finishing it.. The ending, oh my god, it made me bawled for hours. Long after putting down the book, I was still crying like a mad woman.

I love Labradors. All my life, I have had Labradors. They are such sweet natured, dopey dogs who will do anything including risking their lives for food. After years of living with humans - they have embraced a unique talent of looking cute and silly just to gain some affection.

I have been bugging Rudi to let Sophie audition for ads or movies because I definitely see movie star quality in her. She is good with people and intelligent. You judge for yourself. Do you see star quality in her? or am I just biased?

Clairol Herbal Shampoo for Dogs..............

Attention...Sit straight it makes you look taller..

Aww.... isn't she beautiful

This is so Lassie, the long way home.

Girl and girl's best friend
How's this for a movie poster?

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Happy Birthday Grandma

1:47 PM

Two days ago on the 27th of December, it was my grandma's birthday. If she had still been alive today, she would have been 79. I really had missed her so and although it's been one and a half years since she passed away ; thinking about her still makes me blink a tear or two.

Lately I have been thinking about people that die and how we never actually really die. Well the physical body dies but a part of them continues to live on in us- their children and their children's children. Whenever I look at my family members, I see in them bits and pieces of grandma or rather things that remind me of her.

Well I unfortunately didn't have the slightest share of some of granny's miracle skinny genes and but as I grow older my hope is be as kind as her - nearly la. I am no angel okie. My grandma was the kindest person ever. She was such a gentle soul and she was always so satisfied with everthing. It doesn't matter to her whether you gave her more or less, she was always happy with what she has got.

The thought of grandma still living in us comforts me a little. I know that in the past the concept of self, the concept of fulfillment, of reaching out for a dream are unheard of. My grandma didn't have a chance to study much because the war broke out, she had her first kid when she was 20. She became a grandma at 50.

Given a chance, I wondered what Grandma wanted to be. I hate thinking about opportunities life denied her from because I'm sure that if grandma had that opportunity to be whoever she wanted to, she would have done pretty well.

Grandma loved asking young people like me questions about the world, about who our favorite pop idols were and for some strange reason my mind kept going back to the time, when I watched Madonna's Like a Virgin with her. She was a trendy granny.

I thought about granny again on my way to work. If there was a part of grandma that continued living in me, I hope she is able to see that I am fortunate enough to be the person I want to be, to live the type of lifestyle I choose for myself and that I am strong independent woman. I know that women of her generation and so on and so forth had to endure terrible things but I want the world to know that was the sacrifices from her and her forefathers that contribute to how I live my life today and that is something I am so thankful of..

I miss you so much Po.. Happy Birthday.

My grandma with my great grandma

My grandparents - when they were still dating. Actually grandpa was pretty hot

My grandparents' wedding picture. See what I mean, I can never be as skinny as grandma. Not fair la. I have to sweat it out.

How come my grandma had such nice features whereas mine kinda look as though it's pasted on my face like Mr. Potatohead

My grandparents just before my grandpa passed away. Grandma - signature look. Very trendy for a grannie. My grand dad didn't age too well hor..

Picture of yours truly. See la, I was such a tomboy. I played with boys and I curse like one. Look at all the scars on my legs.

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I wish you all a Merry Christmas

9:15 AM

(Saw this on a message board and I thought this was pretty funny)

Merry Christmas Everyone

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Chicks that annoy me..

12:33 PM

There is one type of people that I absolute have no respect for - Asian chicks that think that once they get a white guy as husband or boyfriend, their status automatically changes from normal to high class.

After 50 years of decolonization, the sun I am sorry to say has set on the British empire and until today there are still low lifes that think that " Oh you're white and I have to kiss your ass". No wonder gwai lohs love living here.

There is fugly looking woman that lives in the same apartment building as me which I cannot stand. She is filipino ( no offense to filipinos in general, I am cool with the street dancing and sitting down in front of HSBC building on Sundays) Everytime you see her you can almost feel that she oozes this, oh, I am so highly and mighty type of attitude towards the other maids. It never fails to amaze me that just because of her marital ties with her cholesterol laden husband, she miraculously developed this posh British accent... Wahhhhh

On the way out to the lift yesterday, one of my clients said to me. You have been in HK for so long but you don't look like a Hong Konger. I was so agitated I'd almost wanted to bite her head off. Instead I didn't my anger got the better of me and said, well one could throw a brick and it will probably hit 10 HK girls, why should I be one? Cut the long story short, I am a fucking proud Malaysian. I might not be proud of the stories of political sodomizing and dumb things that ministers say or even the fact that my beloved home country has banned Yoga but trust me I am proud to be Malaysian.

That's why when people ask me, Are you Singaporean? I said, do you what is the punishment for calling a Malaysian a Singaporean? You can executed for that..

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I need a man.

9:13 AM

I was once the undisputed reigning queen of fag hags back home in Malaysia. There was a point in my life that I was only hanging out with gay men and I savored every minute of sweet bitchiness.

I have been living in HK for four years and recently I have been feeling as though there is a part of my life that I sorely missed - hanging out with that one special gay man in my life. Of course I have met gay people since living here but I haven't found one that is bitchy, witty and speaks good English because Cantonese humour most often than not gets lost on me.

I have been hunting incessantly for that one special gay pal to the point I am getting a little desperate and edgy. I just someone to go shopping with, tell me I look fat in baby doll dresses. I want to go to gay bars and dance on the podium and act all slutty with. I want to listen to gay men bitch because they are so animating and vivid.

Where should you think I find him? I know that there is this gay website -www. fridae.com, do you think I start a thread that says Fag Hag looking for her bitch?

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I am just rattling on.............

2:35 PM

I have been having trouble waking up in the mornings. I always do in winter. I think I must have been a bear in my last life because I have this tendency of hibernating when the weather is cold..

As 2008 draws to a close, it hasn't been that bad of a year for myself because it has been a year whereby I truly opened myself up to certain people making new and wonderfu friends,trying times at work and attempting to do something I considered then as chasing a pipe dream... I mean who would have thought that I am now a fitness trainer? Like what the heck just happened.

Seriously corporate people are very boring and I am just never going be content being just a corporate chick. Maintaining two lives is very very complex, time and energy consuming.. Oh did I tell you, I am now going to coach a running team.. I am so looking forward to that. The thing is I have surprised myself by accepting that sometimes to be happy, it doesn't take much fuss. I'd be happy doing something/anything that breaks the mode of an ordinary day and I am happy now.

The day before yesterday, I was asked to write ad online dating ad for my friend J.. Here is what I came up with for her: -

"If life is like a box of chocolates, you need someone to savor the many different flavors of life with. I am a true believer that to love me is to know me because I am so much more that meets the eyes

If a man is 40 and successful, his list of accomplishments and the amount of his monthly salary are usually his best form of advertisement. Not so the case with successful women, I mean can you think of a female version of George Clooney? Not really.

The thing is.. for women to be relatively successful, you have to spend a lot of time developing your career and really it just takes so much harder for women to climb up corporate ladders. By the time they enjoy a sizeable amount of success, their male counterparts opt to go for much younger women. So where does this leave single successful women? Pathetic social rejects..

It sickens me whenever I am with her and when people ask her so J how many kids do you have? And when she says she is single, they look at her with sympathetic primate looking eyes... awww, you will soon..

This is fucking bullshit. I hate to think that my life is only complete if I have the one. Sure it's easy for me to say this because I happen to have a wonderful man. But even if I don't, I want to discover the meaning of my entire existence through my own accord.

It's now less than a month before I turn 30. I resolve to -

1.) Not be friends or entertain with people I do not like or have no interest to entertain

2.) Work diplomatically with the people I don't like or hate but yet think of the ultimate goal

3.) Giving back to society. I don't like hanging out with old people because they have a funny smell and the only thing that really tug at my heartstrings - are animals so I want to help animals

4.) Bite my tongue and before I lash out in anger, think about the words that I may say to hurt another person.

5.) Be a good boss/coach and develop the talents of those under my supervision

6.) Since, I am now most comfortable in my skin, I have made the decision to take stylish nude pictures of myself.

In the past couple of weeks, I have been busy going for parties. Please see my transformation from broadway New York, New York to high brow Mandarina bitch in my Qi Pao to Cowgirl. I think I look good in Qi Paos, I am thinking of making a few more...What do you think??