I met a friend who works for UBS today and when he walked into the room he said, "you are probably the most un-stressed person I have met in a long long time".

I am stressed to a certain extend and I don't know anyone who is not these days with the exception of monks and social workers. On second thought,they probably are too because they have plenty of social issues to handle now.

HSBC laid off 450 people today and those who got the axe weren't allowed to pack, their stuff were to be DHL-ed to them because reporters have been waiting in the lobby to snap juicy pictures, thousands of factories have shut in China, real estate agents are in the midst of being laid off. I have never seen Hong Kong at such a vulnerable state. Lately, I find myself asking, how did we get here? This time last year,we were still partying like there was no tomorrow and girls that worked for LV couldn't care less if you bought anything because Chinese tourists will buy everything....

I refuse to be stressed over something that is so beyond me. In my fitness course, I remember studying this part that in the past 20 years although people have increased their spending power, they have also developed more problems - health and mental wise. While growing up, we have been taught values that are so wrong. Your whole being,your worth is measured by the size of your house, the car you drive, the rich people you are friends with...

We push ourselves so hard, so far over the edge. Like why? Why do we need a walk in closet with 200 pairs of shoes? How do we justify the validity of having 400 bucks Manolos? Afterall, we only have one fucking pair of feet..We have fallen so deep into this a-hole of owning things, having things - to the point we define our worth based on those things.

Again if I were to lose my job tomorrow, I won't say it's entirely a bad thing. Maybe some of us need that push to set us free. I want so much to be a full time fitness professional but the thought of starting from bottom, horrible pay really freak me out. However I do like my day job, I derive a lot of satisfaction out of it and I am good at what I do. I'd be just fortunate to be able to do both.

You can't have everything. You can only have the best of what you put your mind into.

Isn't life about that tension - it's like playing a perpetual game of tug of war between what you want and what you love and I have loads of be grateful for.