It's amazing how much I think about about smoking. I think about it when I take a dump, I think about it when I am full, I think about it when I am bored, I think about it when I step outdoor, I think about it when I need to reward myself, when I am pissed off with someone, I think about it when I smell and see it. I think about it loads. In every circumstance and whenever my brain needs a filler moving from one thing to another.

Then reality hits, I no longer smoke. Hello everyone, I am Natalie and I am a smoker who has chosen to quit for the good reasons in the world; reasons I think I know and reasons I constantly need reminding.

It has been four days since I have been clean and I ever more determined to win this battle against my arch-nemesis - Mr. Philip Morris.

Hope you had a lovely weekend.

Happy Birthday again Haye and thank you for inviting me to your party. It proved to myself that I could party without smoking. It's a first in many years. Here's to your halfway to retirement!!!