I was once the undisputed reigning queen of fag hags back home in Malaysia. There was a point in my life that I was only hanging out with gay men and I savored every minute of sweet bitchiness.

I have been living in HK for four years and recently I have been feeling as though there is a part of my life that I sorely missed - hanging out with that one special gay man in my life. Of course I have met gay people since living here but I haven't found one that is bitchy, witty and speaks good English because Cantonese humour most often than not gets lost on me.

I have been hunting incessantly for that one special gay pal to the point I am getting a little desperate and edgy. I just someone to go shopping with, tell me I look fat in baby doll dresses. I want to go to gay bars and dance on the podium and act all slutty with. I want to listen to gay men bitch because they are so animating and vivid.

Where should you think I find him? I know that there is this gay website -www. fridae.com, do you think I start a thread that says Fag Hag looking for her bitch?

I have been having trouble waking up in the mornings. I always do in winter. I think I must have been a bear in my last life because I have this tendency of hibernating when the weather is cold..

As 2008 draws to a close, it hasn't been that bad of a year for myself because it has been a year whereby I truly opened myself up to certain people making new and wonderfu friends,trying times at work and attempting to do something I considered then as chasing a pipe dream... I mean who would have thought that I am now a fitness trainer? Like what the heck just happened.


Seriously corporate people are very boring and I am just never going be content being just a corporate chick. Maintaining two lives is very very complex, time and energy consuming.. Oh did I tell you, I am now going to coach a running team.. I am so looking forward to that. The thing is I have surprised myself by accepting that sometimes to be happy, it doesn't take much fuss. I'd be happy doing something/anything that breaks the mode of an ordinary day and I am happy now.

The day before yesterday, I was asked to write ad online dating ad for my friend J.. Here is what I came up with for her: -


"If life is like a box of chocolates, you need someone to savor the many different flavors of life with. I am a true believer that to love me is to know me because I am so much more that meets the eyes


If a man is 40 and successful, his list of accomplishments and the amount of his monthly salary are usually his best form of advertisement. Not so the case with successful women, I mean can you think of a female version of George Clooney? Not really.

The thing is.. for women to be relatively successful, you have to spend a lot of time developing your career and really it just takes so much harder for women to climb up corporate ladders. By the time they enjoy a sizeable amount of success, their male counterparts opt to go for much younger women. So where does this leave single successful women? Pathetic social rejects..

It sickens me whenever I am with her and when people ask her so J how many kids do you have? And when she says she is single, they look at her with sympathetic primate looking eyes... awww, you will soon..


This is fucking bullshit. I hate to think that my life is only complete if I have the one. Sure it's easy for me to say this because I happen to have a wonderful man. But even if I don't, I want to discover the meaning of my entire existence through my own accord.

It's now less than a month before I turn 30. I resolve to -

1.) Not be friends or entertain with people I do not like or have no interest to entertain

2.) Work diplomatically with the people I don't like or hate but yet think of the ultimate goal

3.) Giving back to society. I don't like hanging out with old people because they have a funny smell and the only thing that really tug at my heartstrings - are animals so I want to help animals

4.) Bite my tongue and before I lash out in anger, think about the words that I may say to hurt another person.

5.) Be a good boss/coach and develop the talents of those under my supervision

6.) Since, I am now most comfortable in my skin, I have made the decision to take stylish nude pictures of myself.

In the past couple of weeks, I have been busy going for parties. Please see my transformation from broadway New York, New York to high brow Mandarina bitch in my Qi Pao to Cowgirl. I think I look good in Qi Paos, I am thinking of making a few more...What do you think??